To be perfectly honest, I started ugly crying about 3 seconds after I realized my diamond was gone. I called Josh and I was just a wreck. The first place I looked was under the sofa cushion I was sitting on and I didn't see it. Then I searched all over the floor where I had just worked out and there was nothing. Oh my goodness I was SO UPSET! I had recently read something about choosing joy in everything and I slowly decided that I was going to be joyful in this situation. I put on my Chris Tomlin Pandora station {best thing ever} and started singing praise songs to my savior as I swept the floor! I was on the floor looking under the couch when I had this thought that if God wanted me to find it, I would! And if he didn't, then I won't. And that is okay. While laying on the floor I put my head down and I just prayed for several minutes. I was overcome with peace about not having my diamond anymore. If it was gone, it was gone. I was not getting another one. And I was okay with that!! God is so good to give us such peace and comfort in any circumstance. But then this little girl woke up....
I mean, this is super corny, but she is my real jewel!! I just LOVE her! And to have her and my amazing husband safe and with me is amazing. What else do I need?? God has given me SO much! With that said, I know some people do loose the people closest to them, and I have to believe that God would get me through that as well. But that is not something I'm trying to write about right now :)
And then my husband came home, and look what he found....
The best part is that it was where I had looked first, under the couch cushion. LOL! I'm grateful that I found it, but I'm more grateful for the closeness that I felt to God while it was missing. I really was okay without it. It's just a "thing." Realistically, it wasn't replaceable, but it didn't need to be! God has been challenging Josh and I in the past few months to really think about what we consider a "need." It's nice to have "things," but I guess I learned that they're not worth crying over when you loose them, no matter how expensive or sentimental. The Lord says, "Be joyful always." {1 Thessaonians 5:16}. He does not say, "Be joyful when things are going well for you." I am going to try and do better at that this week. With God all things are possible, right?? I'm not judging anyone who lost their ring and had a major melt down {remember, I did at first} but I'm glad that my God showed me a different way! It was so freeing to not be upset about it!
And lets be honest, I'm pretty exciting to go pick it up this afternoon :) hehe